What if I told you I had never done this before? Would you believe me or chalk this up to another dingy woman just saying she never had done this with in fact maybe she had. Truth be told in this situation I have never actually blogged and have rarely read other blogger stuff but since I love to journal at night, and I have been kind of chatting with this really strange individual that does do this, I began to think- hey-what if this could be a therapeutic kind of thing.
I am one of those crazy woman that kind likes reading those self help books then nit pick them apart on why in the hell they don't work, and if they really do work then how come they don't work for me-that kind of stuff. Are you like that or is it just me? Do me a favor a don't really answer that cause- then that whole self complex person might kick in and i truly do not like corrective criticism so -why even read the self help book is what I'm thinking.
As crazy as it seem life has to be then we have to add some kind of sick and warped delusional thinking into all. Don't get me wrong I am totally into self betterment but then you have people claim they want to be better but are just like me and it pisses them off when you draw it to their attention. Here is a great example. I hear from my mother about the type of hypocrite that tries to be something I'm not but yet go to church. Hey- church is a hospital for us hypocrites because we are trying, maybe not achieving, but trying to do better for your individual self and family. So if it is a screwed up thing to go to church, yet be a sinner, then i hate to tell ya'll something but we will all burn in hell. Ouch. Heck if there were no sinners, and no one needed anything but themselves then what is left for us in the realm of hope. I would much rather admit i am in need for some Divine intervention than sit here thinking i am hopeless- come on which is actually better?
Anyway-I guess that will be it for now just means of kind of expressing but since i still journal the old fashion way i am out of here to pick up a pen and paper and do some old time writing vs sitting here at a desk typing. Until we write and read again.....I'm outta here.
